The real me..

The real me..
Finding the real me



I live in Perth, Western Australia and go to a place called Perth Steam
Works. It s a small building down a side street and not much to look at.
It s a place where Gay men can go, it s clean, discreet and unobtrusive.
I don t consider myself gay as I have no interest in men that is until I
am dressed. Is this the same for all like us?

I have been there a few times with the sole purpose of getting it off
with men. Normally I take all my gear with me in a bag and change there
but it s difficult because there are no changing rooms, or none that I
have seen, and change in one of the rooms. This is fine but the only one
lockable is the mirror room and as you know it takes a while for us to
change and sometimes others want to use the room. So I now put undies on
at home, I also paint my toe nails and glue on my long finger nails, and
wear gloves. I also tuck and tape and butt plug myself. When I get there
I still use the mirror room but only for my top clothes and make up.

I have slowly been replacing some of my gear and was dressed in the
following: thong, leather under bust lace up corset with six suspenders,
stockings, 13 inch long lycra mini skirt, sleeveless top - four sizes too
small, this enables me to wear E cup stick on silicone breasts without a
bra, 4 inch heel shoes with ankle straps, long black wig, long earrings
and full make up, tongue stud and some nice perfume.

I put my male clothes in the bag and went out to the harness room; being
very dimly lit makes it easier. I put my bag under a bench and sit and
wait. This day I was there for only about five minutes when a guy came to
the door. He had a towel around his waist so I knew he had been in the
shower which was good as I hate smelly cocks. He didn t know what to do
so I stood up and walked over to him; taking his hand I led him into the
room. Stepping back, I did a twirl, bending over in front of him showing
him my ass which I pushed against the bulge in his towel. He reached out
putting his hands on my waist pulling me to him; I turned and put my arms
around his neck and pulled his face to my neck. He started to kiss my
neck and ears, making me shiver. I pulled my head back and gave him a
peck on the cheek, he pulled me to him and planted his lips on mine and
gave me an open mouth kiss. OMG! It made me tremble, his hands were all
over my body, grabbing my ass and rubbing his cock against me. I broke
the kiss, leant forward and whispered in his ear that I wanted his cock.
I stepped back and holding on to him, slowly went down on my knees so my
face was level with his bulge. I reached out and undid the towel, letting
his lovely 8 inch cock free. I put my hand around it and slid it up and
down the length, rubbing my thumb on the underside of the head. It was
his turn to shiver now as I ran my tongue up and down the underside and
just putting my red lips over the end. Slowly I lowered my head, taking
his whole length into my mouth and down my throat, gagging slightly. I
reached behind me into my bag, taking out the bottle of throat numbing
spray and gave three squirts into the back of my throat. After a few
seconds I could feel it taking effect and engulfed his cock right down my
throat. I bobbed my head up and down very slowly, twirling my tongue on
the underside using the stud. His hands went to the back of my head,
pulling me down onto his cock again. I gave his cock a good sucking,
tasting the pre cum as it leaked out. I stopped, turned around on my
hands and knees, presenting my ass for him, opening my legs wide. He
knelt down between my knees, pulled my thong to one side. Feeling the
butt plug he slowly pulled it out, rolling a condom over his cock he
shuffled forward til his cock was touching my entrance. I wriggled my ass
against him, pushing back. He got the hint and putting his hands on my
hips he slowly pushed the whole length of his cock into me, feeling his
stomach against my ass cheeks. It felt so wonderful, I was in heaven. I
wriggled my ass again and he started pumping in and out, slowly fucking
me. I had my head down at this point and my hair was in my eyes so I
tossed my head up to see a cock in front of my face. Someone had liked
what they saw and wanted to join in, so I opened my mouth for him and he
slid his cock in. The guy in my ass started to stroke in and out, rocking
me back and forth, this was good for me as the cock in my mouth was going
down my throat at the same time. My tits were swinging back and forward
to the strokes and I only wish I had real ones he could hold on to and
play with my nipples. This went on for a good ten minutes; I was
dribbling everywhere even though I had swallowed. They both started to
speed up, really fucking me hard filling me with their whole lengths on
each stroke. Suddenly they stopped and pulled out, I wondered what was
happening when they swapped ends. The first cock went in my waiting and
willing mouth closely followed by the 9 incher up my willing ass. They
started their strokes again, rocking me back and forth, filling me
completely at the same time. Faster and faster they rammed into me, I
wanted to feel some balls but I think I would have fallen over if I had
lifted my arm. The guy in my mouth grabbed the back of my head and
started to really ram his cock down my throat, the gag reflex gone
completely as it slid past my tonsils. The guy up my ass grabbed my hips
and did the same, ramming me as hard as he could; I was in heaven,
sensory overload. They both gave a hard push and held deep in me as they
came at the same time, I could feel both cocks throbbing and the cum
being pumped into my tummy. It was too much for me as I came in my thong,
the biggest I had ever had and without touching my tightly hidden cock.

The two guys sat on the floor exhausted; I just collapsed on the floor
also exhausted. When we had got our breath back, they helped me up and we
sat down. They started asking me questions about being a tranny and why
hadn t I gone on hormones and had breast implants. I said I had always
wanted to but had never had the guts to do it. They said they could help
me if I wanted as they knew a Doctor in town who was an expert in
transgender. They gave me their email address and told me to think about
it and email them if I was interested. As they got up to go I asked them
if they knew anyone else in steam works that wanted a good time, they
said they would ask around.

About ten minutes later seven guys came into the room, all with towels#around their waists and all sporting hard ons. I spent the next four#hours in there being fucked in both holes in all sorts of positions, but#I have to admit spit roast was my favourite. My ass was sore and my jaw#ached, I wanted more but just couldn t do it, so sadly I tottered back to#the mirror room to change and go home.##Over the next couple of days I thought about their offer, this was#probably the only chance I would get so sat at my computer and emailed#them to say I would love to take them up on their offer. I had a reply#within ten minutes telling me to meet them the next day outside a park at#11 am. The following morning I got up early and showered, dried off,#tucked, taped and plugged myself and put on my underwear. I wore normal#guy clothes over the top and went out to meet them at the park. They were#already there when I arrived and I got into the car. We went to a nearby#suburb to a clinic, all of us going in; one of them told the receptionist#that Debbie-Louise Goodhead was here. We waited for a few minutes and I#was called in to the surgery, the guys waited outside. She asked lots of#questions, mainly my past, how long had I been cross dressing, the sex#side of it etc. I had to remove my outer clothes for an examination and#she didn t bat an eye when she saw my underwear. She took my blood#pressure, pulse, heart rate and checked my lungs. She had to take blood#for tests which would take a couple of days for the results and to make#another appointment for two days time.##I rang the clinic the next day and made an appointment for 10 am. The#guys said they would take me again. On the morning I dressed in similar#underwear, but this time I wore my corset. I went straight into the#surgery this time; she had good news that my blood tests were normal. She#would give me an estrogen injection and testosterone blocker injection,#one in each buttock, and two different pills to take daily. The#injections were a new very powerful and fast acting hormone and would#last a month, so I was to come back then for a booster. She said I would#notice the effects after only eight weeks and she would talk to me about#my options then. All the while I was going to steam works and also seeing#the two guys, they had themselves and I checked for HIV and we were all#clear so I was happy for them to fuck me bare back. That was a lovely#experience feeling the cum spurt into my ass, afterwards I would put the#plug back to hold it in.##After the eight weeks were up I went back to the clinic, the guys waited#outside again. The Doctor gave me a check over and noticed my chest was#puffy and my nipples were swollen, I had noticed this too and my nipples#were more sensitive, she also said my skin was softening. She asked me if#I had thought about breast implants, I said I had always thought about#them and would love to have breasts. She said the time was about right if#I wanted as then my own would grow around them and would look more#natural. I told her I wanted E cup if possible and could I have my lips#plumped up. She said neither was a problem and my two friends said they#would pay for anything I wanted. She made arrangements for the next day#at 10 am and was an overnight stay. ##The guys took me to the clinic, made sure I was settled in and went home#saying they couldn t wait for tomorrow. A nurse came in to prep me,#giving me some pills which made me drowsy. The Doctor came in to make#sure I was ready and did I have a preference for the insertion of the#implants. I told her whichever would give the best result, which was at#the base of where the breasts would be and would leave only a tiny scar.#By this time I was really drowsy and nearly asleep so they wheeled me off#to the operating theatre. An IV was put into my arm, the anaesthetic was#pushed in and I went off to sleep. It took about four hours to do both#procedures and when I woke up my chest hurt and my lips were sore. The#Doctor came in to check on me and said the bandages would come off#tomorrow.##Next morning she came in at 9, she cut the bandages off and I couldn t#believe what I saw, the most beautiful pair of tits I had ever seen. She#said they would be a bit sore and hard for a week or two and put a#support bra on me so they wouldn t go out of shape. She put a mirror in#front of me so I could see my lips and what a set of cock sucker lips#they were and I couldn t wait to try them out. Late afternoon the guys#came to collect me and I could tell by their expressions they liked what#they saw. They suggested I went back to their home so they could look#after me, I readily agreed. They were great fussing over me for the next#two weeks, showering me, cooking for me, dressing me. Came the day I#could remove the bra and I did it in front of them. They couldn t believe#how they looked either and with my lips looking so inviting they took me#off to the bedroom. When I sucked the first cock with my new lips, it#felt so different and when they played with my tits it was heaven. We#spent most of the evening fucking each other s brains out, with them#making me cum too. One of them went to a drawer and came back with a gift#wrapped box; I opened it and inside was two lovely half cup bras, two#pairs of thongs, a large black butt plug and a cock cage. This last item#had a ring which went behind my balls and was locked in place with a#small padlock; it was obviously to stop me playing with myself. They#fitted this on me and when the lock snapped shut I started getting hard#which hurt in the confines of the cage. I bent over at the waist and he#slid the butt plug into me. I put on a bra and one of the thongs, walking#around the bedroom showing off. My balance had moved because of the#weight of my tits and I had to pull my shoulders back which made them#stick out even more. The other guy went to another drawer and gave me#another box. Inside was a cute baby doll nightie with a thong, I put it#on and it looked gorgeous. I thanked them by dropping to my knees and#giving them each a blow job.##Over the next six months the changes to my body were very rapid. My tits#filled out, my body hair diminished, my body changed shape and my skin#softened but most of all my cock and balls shrank, making it very hard#for me to get an erection and keep it. My libido was stronger than ever#but it was more of a desire than the feeling I got before. It was time#for another check up at the clinic but this time I went dressed#completely, the Doctor was very pleased with the way I was turning out.#She said I now had some choices to make and the guys had told her#whatever choices I made they would go along with. She explained that if I#kept up with the same hormone regimen I would become sterile and not be#able to get erections at all, if I still wanted to I could reduce the#dosage. Or I could keep going and she would give me testosterone pills to#take whenever I needed an erection. The last was I could be castrated#which would mean one pill less to take and still use the testosterone#pills when needed. I could if I wanted take the ultimate step. I didn t#know what to do so I said I would think about it. I spoke to the guys#about it and they said whatever I decided to do they would be good with#it. I knew what I wanted, and had always wanted so I rang the clinic to#ask the Doctor if I could come in tomorrow for the surgery. I didn t tell#the guys what I was going to do, they would have to wait and see.##They took me down to the clinic and waited for me. I walked into the#procedure room with the Doctor and she asked me if I was sure as there#was no going back, I said I was. I removed my thong and lay down on a#table, putting my ankles in stirrups. She covered my tummy and scrubbed#my groin, painting on antiseptic. I watched her fill a syringe with#liquid then the needle going into first one testicle then the other. She#asked me one more time if I was sure, I nodded yes. She prodded me down#there and I couldn t feel anything. She was about ten minutes working,#and then she stepped back with a dish in her hand. In the dish were my#balls, now I was a castrated Shemale, never to be male again. I had to#come back in a week to remove the stitches and had to keep the area clean#and dry. The two guys came in to help me up, I pointed to the dish and#they both had big grins. A week later I went back and she removed the#stitches, at last I could put on my thong. It fitted wonderfully,#obviously the cock cage was no good now and I wouldn t be needing it#anyway.##I asked the guys if they thought my face was passable, they said maybe it#needed a little work to make it more feminine, so it was off to the#clinic again for some facial feminization surgery. After the bandages#came off I felt complete, new body, no testosterone, beautiful body and#tits. All I needed now was some piercings that was easy and went off to#the local studio where I had two more ear piercings, my belly button and#my nipples. I kept myself permanently plugged with the large black butt#plug, this also made me sway my hips more when I walked. The guys and I#talked about me working and said I could make a fortune in the sex#industry, I knew this and felt a thrill run through me at the thought of#fucking in front of a camera. There are plenty of back street studios in#Perth that do this and after asking around we found one with a good#reputation and paid them a visit. I had to undress to show them my body,#as I had a gorgeous figure now I didn t wear a corset very often, just a#waist cincher. I never wore tights - hated them - always stockings, the#smallest thong I could find and half cup bras. When I got down to my#undies, the guy nearly fell off his chair saying he didn t believe I was#a Shemale, I had to take off my thong to prove I still had a cock even#though it was now useless. ##He asked me if I was into anything, I said I was, especially BDSM, the#only exceptions were golden showers and anything to do with shit, as far#as I was concerned that was disgusting. He wanted me to do a test and if#I was agreeable now. He took me to a set where there was a large area set#up as a dungeon. I walked over to a frame that had steel hooks on the top#and bottom bars about four feet apart, he could see I was in awe and#asked if I wanted the test film on this; I said I did. He slid the black#butt plug into me and then put a cock gag in my mouth, buckling it behind#my head. He strapped leather cuffs to my ankles and wrists and helped me#up onto the step, reaching up he clipped the wrist cuffs onto the hooks,#bending down he put my feet on the bottom bar and clipped the ankle cuffs#to the hooks, leaving me spread eagled. He walked over to a handle and#started winding it, immediately I could feel myself being lifted up until#I was hanging stretched out. He picked up a bull whip and walked back,#standing behind me. I heard this swishing noise then felt the whip#connect with my back, the end snaking around my waist and snapping across#my tummy. I jolted in the frame and tried to scream, the pain was bad; he#went over to the handle and stretched me out some more, making me really#tight, then continued to whip me. After 20 lashes, three other guys came#over and took me down, carrying me to another contraption, pushing me#against it, they tied my ankles and knees to the uprights, bent me#forwards over the cross bar and tied my waist to a bar that went between#my tits. My arms were pulled away from me and tied at the wrists, elbows#and shoulders, my hair was gathered into a pony tail and tied to the#waist strap, making my mouth drop open. I was held like that for an hour#while my ass and mouth were given a relentless fucking by some very big#cocks. The team were very impressed with how I handled everything and#offered me a weekly spot to make a movie, I readily agreed to this#especially after the money they offered.##I still live with my two friends, I have never been happier than I am#now, I love my life being a Shemale and wished I had become one when I#was in my teens. I still service my friends and we have friends over#quite often and we have some really good times. Looking at me now, no one#would ever think I was once a man, I still have my teeny little cock#which only good for peeing with, and have been thinking about taking the#ultimate step. The biggest seller and turn on in the movies I am in is#the sight of a little cock on this gorgeous female body.#